52 PIECES OF ME WEEK-7

IT'S ELIZABETH'S BIRTHDAY WEEK.



THIS IS HER DADDY AND MY FIRST LOOK AT HER AFTER SHE WAS BORN




ELIZABETH WAS BORN MARCH 19TH 1983 MY SECOND CHILD AND YOUNGEST DAUGHTER. SHE IS NOW 26 YRS OLD. HER DADDY AND I DATED 13 YRS BEFORE WE GOT MARRIED AND HAD ELIZABETH. I WAS A STAY AT HOME MOM UNTIL ELIZABETH WAS AROUND 17 OR 18. ELIZABETH HAS ALWAYS LIVED IN THE SAME HOUSE EXCEPT FOR JUST A FEW MONTHS. SHE IS NOW BACK HOME LIVING WITH ME IN THE SAME HOUSE. SHE WENT TO THE SAME SCHOOL HARDING ACADEMY, KINDERGARDEN THROUGH THE 12TH GRADE. ELIZABETH WENT TO ARIZONA FOR A SHORT TIME TO GO TO COLLEGE BUT FOUND THAT COLLEGE TO BE MORE ABOUT MONEY THAN TEACHING SO SHE CAME BACK HOME WITH ME AND WENT TO CHRISTIAN BROTHERS COLLEGE AND GRADUATED IN FINANCIAL BUSINESS. SHE NOW WORKS AT A BANK. SHE LOVES DANCE AND HAS BEEN TAKING DANCE CLASSES FOR THE LAST 10 YRS. BUT STARTED DANCING WHEN DIRTY DANCING CAME OUT WHEN SHE WAS 4 YRS OLD. SHE TAKES BALLET, JAZZ, MODERN, AFRICAN AND HIP HOP BUT LIKES BALLET THE BEST I WOULD SAY. ELIZABETH HAS MANY INTEREST GROWING FLOWERS, COOKING, DIETING, EXERCISING AND A HUGE HEART FOR THE LORD AND HIS WORD. SHE IS BEGINNING TO HAVE A GREAT INTEREST IN TEACHING AND IS NOW WORKING ON BEING A TEACHER. MATH AND FINANCE SEEM TO BE HER GREATEST INTEREST BUT THERE ARE SEVERAL AREAS IN EDUCATION SHE IS LOOKING INTO.

ELIZABETH IS LOOKING FORWARD TO WARM WEATHER SO WE CAN GET OUT AND HAVE SOME BOOGY WOOGY TIME TOGETHER. THE DAY AFTER HER BIRTHDAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF SPRING SO HER SPRING DAY DREAMS ARE JUST AROUND THE CORNER.

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HERE IS A SLIDESHOW OF JUST PART TO THE THINGS ELIZABETH LOVES.

I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR SUNSHINE FOR WEEKS AND AS I WAS MAKING THIS FOR YOU ELIZABETH THE SUN CAME OUT JUST LIKE YOU HAVE ALWAYS MADE IT DO FOR ME WHENEVER I SEE YOUR SMILING FACE COMING MY WAY. WE'VE SEEN SOME ROCKY ROADS AND BEEN DOWN THE ROAD OF LIFE ON MANY TWIST AND TURNS BUT MOST OF ALL WE HAVE SHARED SO MANY MANY WONDERFUL THINGS AND TIMES TOGETHER. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY QUEEN ELIZABETH VICTORIA LYNN SMITH. I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO MANY WONDERFUL DAYS AHEAD FOR THE SPRING AND SUMMER WITH YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND I HOPE ALL YOUR DREAMS FOR THE NEXT YEAR COMES TO YOU WITH THE GREATEST OF EASE. I LOVE YOU MOMMA

LAST BUT NOT LEAST YOUR BIRTHDAY POSTING COULD NOT BE COMPLETE WITHOUT

52 PIECES OF ME WEEK-6

THE AFTERNOON AFTER TOMMY'S SON PLANTED ALL THE TREES AND PLANTS AT THE MEMORIAL SIGHT IT BEGAN TO RAIN AND IT RAINED ALL OF THAT NIGHT AND THE NEXT DAY UNTIL THAT AFTERNOON. ALL OF TOMMY'S FAMILY WAS IN TOWN AND AT THIER HOUSE SO I TOOK SOME WOOD AND WENT TO VISIT SO WE COULD ALL HAVE A NICE AFTERNOON TOGETHER. WHILE I WAS THERE IT STOPPED RAINING AND IT BEGAN TO SNOW. I TOLD THEM I HAD TO LEAVE BECAUSE IF THE STREETS IN CORO LAKE GET SLICK YOU CAN'T GO ANYWHERE BECAUSE OF THE HILLS AND CURVES.

I RAN TO GET SOME WINE. WHY YOU CAN'T HAVE A GREAT SNOW DAY WITHOUT WINE. I STOPPED BY THE HOUSE AND GOT ELIZABETH SO WE COULD RIDE AROUND OUR LAKE AND SEE THE BEAUTIFUL SNOW FALL. WE DID AND ENDED UP BY TOMMY'S MEMORIAL SIGHT. WHEN WE GOT OUT OF THE CAR WE NOTICED DOWN IN THE SPILLWAY THE WATER WAS RUSHING OVER THE ROCKS AND LOOKED SO BEAUTIFUL WITH THE SNOW FALLING ON THE LAKE TOO. WE HAD FOUND A TREASURE OF A SPOT RIGHT UNDER OUR NOSE THAT WE NEVER NOTICED WAS THERE BEFORE. SO WITH CAMERA IN HAND WE WENT DOWN BY THE WATER AND I BEGAN TO RELAX FROM THE HORRIBLE FEELING OF LOSS AND SADNESS WATCHING THE MEMORIAL BEING MADE.

AT LAST I HAD FOUND A PEACEFUL PLACE AND IT WAS RIGHT NEXT TO TOMMY'S MEMORIAL. WE STAYED THERE TAKING PICS LISTENING TO THE WATER RUN OVER THE ROCKS AND THE SNOW FALL SO THICK AND BIG HUGE FLAKES COVERING ALL OF OUR SURROUNDINGS.

WHEN GOD CLOSES A DOOR HE ALWAYS OPENS A WINDOW. THE QUESTION IS WHEN WE HAVE SUCH A HUGE LOSS ARE WE LOOKING SO HARD AND SO LONG AT THE CLOSED DOOR THAT WE CAN NOT NOTICE THE WINDOW THAT IS OPEN OR IF WE DO NOTICE THE WINDOW ARE WE WISE ENOUGH TO STOP LOOKING AT THE CLOSED DOOR AND ENJOY THE WINDOW BEING OPEN.

TOMMY HAD TAUGHT ME TO DO THAT WHEN MY HUSBAND DIED IN SO MANY WAYS AND NOW I AM WISE ENOUGH TO DO IT WITH HIM NOW THAT IT IS HIS TIME TO GO HOME TO BE WITH THE LORD AND THE LOAD IS NOT AS HEAVY AND THE WINDOW SEEMS SO MUCH CLOSER NOW.

AS PEACE AND ACCEPTANCE OF WHAT MY LIFE WAS NOW CAME OVER ME AS I SAT THERE LISTENING TO THE WATER AND LOOKING AT HIS MEMORIAL WE ONCE AGAIN GOT INTO THE CAR AND FINISHED OUR LAKE AND NEIGHBORHOOD DRIVE.

AS SAD AS I WAS FOR THE HUGE LOSS TOMMY HAD LEFT ME FEELING BY BEING CALLED HOME WITH THE LORD SO SUDDENLY I KNEW IN MY HEART TOMMY HAD ALSO GIVEN ME THE THE WISDOM AND STRENGTH IN THE PAST 9 YRS TO CARRY ON IN PEACE, RESOLUTION AND ACCEPTANCE TO ENJOY THE REST OF MY LIFE JUST LIKE HE DID HIS LIFE EVERY SINGLE DAY AND JUST LIKE HE HAD STARTED SHOWING ME TO DO 10 YRS EARLIER OVER MY HUSBAND.

WINDOWS COMES IN MANY WAYS, SIZES AND SHAPES. IT'S UP TO US TO DECIDE TO ENJOY THE WINDOW OR TO KEEP LOOKING AT THE CLOSED DOOR. TOMMY WOULD ENJOY THE WINDOW AND THAT IS WHAT I HAVE CHOSEN TO DO AT THE SPECIAL TREASURE SPOT RIGHT NEXT TO HIS MEMORIAL BECAUSE HE TOLD ME SO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST THAT WOULD BE HIS GREATEST WISH FOR ME IF HE WERE TO EVER HAVE TO LEAVE ME.

52 PIECES OF ME WEEK-5

LAST WEEK I HAD THIS ENTRY TO PUT IN AS MY 5TH WEEK OF 52 PIECES OF ME. IT'S A GREAT ONE BUT IT'S ALSO VERY SAD AND HARD FOR ME TO PUT IT TOGETHER. I DECIDED UNTIL I GET IT DONE I CAN'T MOVE ON. THIS WEEK I WILL BE DOING MY 5TH AND 6TH WEEK. THIS ONE IS MY 5TH WEEK.

IT IS TOMMY'S MEMORIAL SIGHT AT CORO LAKE WHERE WE LIVE. TOMMY LIVED HERE 50 YRS. WITH HIS 65 ACHER RANCH THAT HE BUILT FROM SCRATCH WOODLAND TO WHAT IT IS TODAY RIGHT NEXT TO WHERE WE LIVE. TOMMY DID SO MUCH VOLUNTEER WORK AROUND THIS LAKE I CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO NAME IT ALL. HE BOUGHT AND SOLD LAND WHERE BEAUTIFUL HOMES HAVE BEEN BUILT AND HE DID SO MUCH LANDSCAPING I CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO DESCRIBE IT ALL. I HAVE LIVED HERE 27 YRS.

THE LAKE ASSOCIATION TOOK UP A MEMORIAL FUND FROM ALL OF THE RESIDENTS WHO LIVE HERE AND TOMMY'S SON WHO OWNES A LANDSCAPING BUSINESS DONATED ALL THE WORK. THE MEMORIAL WAS PUT OVER ON THE LEVE NEAR THE DAM AND SPILLWAY WHERE ALL THE RESIDENTS GATHER FOR COMMUNITY PARTIES AND FISH FRIES ALL THROUGH THE YEAR. IT'S A BEAUTIFUL PLACE ON THE LAKE AND IT'S ALWAYS FUN TO EAT FRESH COOKED FISH OUT BY THE LAKE WITH ALL OF OUR NEIGHBORS.




THIS IS THE LAST TIME WE WERE AT THE LAKE FISH FRY WHERE THE MEMORIAL IS NOW. IT WAS JUST A FEW WEEKS BEFORE HIS ACCIDENT. THIS IS TOMMY AND ELIZABETH ( MY DAUGHTER )



THIS WAS TAKEN ON NEW YEARS AND ONE OF MY FAVORITES OF US TOGETHER.




TOMMY WANTED THE MAIN SONG PLAYED AT HIS FUNERAL MY WAY AND WE DID



HE DID HIS LIFE HIS WAY AND IT WAS ALWAYS ALWAYS HELPING OTHERS AND HAVING FUN, MAKING EVERYONE HE WAS AROUND HAPPY AND TRYING TO MAKE THIER LIFE AS WELL AS ALL OF THIER FAMILIES A BETTER WORLD TO LIVE IN AND EVERYONE A HAPPIER PERSON WHEN THEY SAW HIM.
TOMMY ALWAYS MADE ME PROUD TO SPELL HIS NAME A WONDERFUL M-A-N. MY LIFE WILL ALWAYS BE A BETTER PLACE TO ME FOR ALL THE THINGS WE DID AND SHARED.

52 PIECES OF ME....... WEEK 4

WEEK # 4. SPRIN​G IS SO CLOSE​ BUT YET SO FAR AWAY.​ AS WE STILL​ STAY CLOSE​ INSID​E WITH ONLY SHORT​ COLD VISIT​S OUTSI​DE HERE ARE SOME OF MY FAVOR​ITE THING​S ON A SUNDA​Y AFTER​NOON.​ THERE​ IS ELIZA​BETH WITH PECHE​ ( OUR POODL​ES NAMED​ APRIC​OT IN FRENC​H ) AS THEY ARE SNUGG​LED UP CLOSE​ TO THE FIREP​LACE.​ SITTI​NG IN FRONT​ OF A WARM FIRE,​ WITH A GLASS​ OF RED WINE,​ CANDL​ES LIT, FLOWE​RS TO LOOK AT PICKE​D OUT OF MY YARD,​ MY PHONE​ INSID​E MY ELVIS​ PHONE​ HOLDE​R HANDY​ IN CASE ANY OF MY FAVOR​ITE PEOPL​E CALL TO SAY HELLO​,​ AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST​ CHOCO​LATE FUDGE​ BROWN​IES MADE BY ELIZA​BETH SITTI​NG ON ONE OF MY ROOST​ER PLATE​S THAT I BOUGH​T FROM CRACK​ER BARRE​L FOR TOMMY​ AND THE RANCH​ CHRIS​TMAS BEFOR​E LAST.​

THIS IS HOW WE SPENT​ MOST OF OUR SUNDA​Y ON OUR NEW FURNI​TURE WATCH​ING TV, PRIMPING AND RELAXING WITH SOME OF OUR FAVOR​ITE THING​S

THIS IS MY FAVORITE VIDEO OF MY FAVORITE THINGS

IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO VIEW IT FIRST GO DOWN TO THE BOTTOM OF MY JOURNAL AND TURN OFF MY MUSIC PLAYER. 

ANNIE AND WILDFIRE

I HAVE BEEN HAVING PROBLEMS WITH MY MOTHER WELSH ( HALF SHELAND, HALF TN. WALKER ) HORSE, ANNIE. the brown and white one.

SHE IS GETTING VERY SKINNY AROUND HER BACK BONE AND HER HIPS.
HER COLT, WILDFIRE IS A YEAR OLD AND STILL NURSING. ANNIE THE MOTHER EATS CONTANTLY HAY AS WELL AS SWEET FEED. ANNIE'S HAIR STARTED TO COME OUT AROUND HER BACK BONE. I HAVE BEEN PUTTING A SPECIAL OINTMENT ON HER AND IT IS GETTING BETTER. I ALSO WORMED HER EVERY 2 -3 MONTHS.

TODAY I TALKED WITH SOME GUYS WHO KNOWS A LOT ABOUT HORSES AND THEY TOLD ME TO SEPERATE THEM UNTIL ANNIE'S MILK DRIES UP SO THE COLT CANNOT NURSE HER ANY MORE . TODAY I PUT WILDFIRE IN THE WOODED LOT RIGHT NEXT DOOR TO MY HOUSE.



I LEFT ANNIE IN MY BACK YARD AND FIXED THE FENCE WHERE THEY CANNOT GET TO EACH OTHER EVEN THOUGH THEY CAN GET NOSE TO NOSE OVER THE FENCE WITH EACH OTHER.

IT IS VERY SAD TO ME THAT NOW THEY STAND AND STARE AT EACH OTHER. BUT I HAVE TO GET ANNIE, HER MOTHER BACK TO HER HEALTHY SELF. AND THAT TITTY BABY COLT IS JUST GOT TO STOP BEING A TITTY BABY AND GROW UP. IT'S CALLED THE CIRCLE OF LIFE.

THIS SONG REMINDS ME OF THEM BEING SEPERATED AND HOW THEY HANG OUT AT THE FENCE ON OPPOSITE SIDES LOOKING AT EACH OTHER.IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO LISTEN TO THIS VIDEO before you click on this video go down and turn off my music at the bottom of my journal

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IT'S BEEN A DAY LONG JOB GETTING HAY ON BOTH SIDES AS WELL AS SWEET FEED AND TO GET THEM SEPERATED BY MYSELF AND FIX THE BARB WIRE FENCE. ALSO GETTING ALL THE WOOD IN THE HOUSE FOR THE COLD DAYS AND NIGHTS AHEAD OF US. IT FEELS LIKE LITTLE HOUSE ON THE PIRARIE AROUND HERE AND LITTLE JOE IS LONG GONE.

IF I CAN GET ANNIE BACK TO LOOKING HEALTHY I WILL BE ONE HAPPY CAMPER. SHE IS SO SWEET AND GENTLE. I'M FEEDING HER APPLES AND CARROTS. I'VE SEEN TOMMY FATTEN SEVERAL SKINNY HORSES BACK TO BEING FAT SO I CAN DO IT TOO. I HAD THE BEST TEACHER IN THE WORLD.

TOMMY ALWAYS USE TO SAY TO ME IF YOU DON'T LIKE SOMEONE GIVE THEM A HORSE. I KNOW WHAT HE MEANT NOW. LOL

I WOULDN'T TRADE MY HORSES HE GAVE ME FOR ANYTHING. I JUST WANT ANNIE TO BE BACK STRONG AND FAT WITH HER BEAUTIFUL COLT SO BOTTOM LINE GOT TO GET TITTY BABY OFF OF HER..

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52 PIECES OF ME....... WEEK 3

THE THIRD WEEK OF MY 52 PIECES OF ME IS ABOUT MY VALENTINE'S DAY
THIS YR. 2009



THIS IS ELIZABETH ( MY DAUGHTER AND ( MY YOUNGEST GRANDSON) JERRON MAKING HEART SHAPED CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES AND DECORATING THEM FOR OUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS . YUMMY THEY WERE DELICIOUS MELT IN YOUR MOUTH WARM DELIGHTS.


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THE DAY BEFORE VALENTINE'S WAS A VERY SAD DAY FOR ME. I WENT TO THE RANCH AND WITHOUT TOMMY IT'S IN BLACK AND WHITE AND ALL THE TECHNICOLOR FOR ME LEFT WITH HIM . I WAS THINKING OF VALENTINE'S PAST AND ALL THE THINGS WE HAD DONE AND SHARED IN THE PAST. I CRIED MOST OF THE DAY.

I DECIDED TO DECORATE MY HOUSE AND HAVE THE BEST VALENTINE POSSIBLE ANYWAY. I MADE MY HOUSE PRETTY FOR ELIZABETH AND I WITH DECORATIONS, PRESENTS AND DECIDED TO PARTY LIKE A ROCK STAR LIKE TOMMY SHOWED ME HOW TO DO UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES IN YOUR LIFE. HE ALWAYS TOLD ME TO ALWAYS LOOK AT THE MOMENT YOU ARE IN. 10 PERCENT OF LIFE IS WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU AND THE OTHER 90 PERCENT IS HOW YOU REACT TO WHAT HAS HAPPEN TO YOU HE WOULD TELL ME.

I GOT MYSELF SOME TULIPS THINKING THAT IS WHAT TOMMY WOULD BE DOING FOR ME. I ALSO GOT ELIZABETH SOME TULIPS AND ELIZABETH GOT HER SISTER SOME TULIPS.

A DAY OR TWO BEFORE TOMMY DIED ELIZABETH AND HIM WERE PLANTING TULIPS BACK IN NOV. THEY WERE GOING TO HAVE A FLOWER GROWING CONTEST. WHILE ELIZABETH WAS PLANTING HERS OUT IN OUR FRONT YARD TOMMY DROVE BY IN HIS GOLF CART AND TOOK HER SHOVEL FROM HER AND LEFT. HE GOT HURT A FEW DAYS LATER AND WENT TO THE TRAUMA CENTER AT THE MED IN MEMPHIS. I THOUGHT OF THE TULIPS AND WAS GOING TO GO PLANT THEM FOR HIM WHILE HE WAS IN THE HOSPITAL. WHEN I WENT TO THE GOLF CART THERE WAS THE SHOVEL AND THE EMPTY BAG THAT THE TULIPS CAME IN. I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL AND ASK HIM WHERE DID YOU PUT YOUR TULIPS. HE COULDN'T TALK FOR ALL THE TUBES BUT HE WOULD ONLY SHRUG HIS SHOULDERS LIKE I DON'T KNOW ??EVERYDAY FOR 6 DAYS BEFORE HE DIED WE ALL KEPT ASKING WHERE ARE THE TULIPS. ALWAYS THE SAME SHRUG HIS SHOULDERS AND PUT BOTH THUMBS UP. AS WE ALL KNOW TOMMY DIED AND WENT TO HEAVEN. WE HAVE ALL TALKED ABOUT WONDER WHERE THOSE TULIPS ARE HE PLANTED.

VALENTINE MORNING I GOT UP DROVE TO HIS HOUSE OPENED MY CAR DOOR RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIS HOUSE IN THE DRIVEWAY AND THERE WERE THE TULIPS. THEY HAD SPROUTED AND THE BUTTERCUPS WERE BLOOMING.I JUMPED OUT OF THAT CAR AND SCREAMED TOMMY GAVE ME FLOWERS AND THEY BLOOMED ON VALENTIN'S DAY FROM HEAVEN.


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HERE THEY ARE LOOK NEXT TO THE DIRT THE GREEN SPROUTS..



THESE ARE THE BUTTERCUPS



THESE ARE THE POTS THAT HAVE THE TULIPS IN THEM AND THE BUTTERCUPS ARE IN THE BACK NEAR THE TREE.




THAT STARTED MY VALENTINE'S DAY OFF WITH A BANG AND HERE ARE THE REST OF THE DAYS PICS ON THE SLIDESHOW. IF YOU WOULD LIKE A CAPTION RUN YOUR CURSER OVER THE BOTTOM OF EACH PIC OR GO TO MY PICS AND LOOK FOR VALENTINE 2009.

52 PIECES OF ME....... WEEK 2

I HAD TOMMY'S FAMILY IN TOWN THIS WEEKEND WITH HIS NEW GRAND BABY SO THIS IS THE FIRST CHANCE I'VE HAD TO GET MY 52 PIECES OF ME - WEEK 2 UP ME ON THE BULLETIN.

THIS WEEK IS ABOUT​ MY NEW FURNI​TURE AND THE HELL I WENT THROU​GH WORKI​NG AT THE CASIN​O TO MAKE ENOUG​H MONEY​ TO BUY THIS MOST COMFO​RTABL​E AND BEAUT​IFUL FURNI​TURE THAT I PLAN TO HAVE FOR A VERY LONG TIME.​ I WORKE​D 6 YRS AT THAT HELL HOLE TAKIN​G GREAT​ AMOUN​TS OF ABUSE​ FROM THE GUEST​ & MOST OF THE SUPER​VISOR​S.​ ALL MY MONEY​ ALWAY​S WENT TOWAR​D BILLS​ BUT WHEN I LEFT FOREV​ER THIS IS WHAT I DID WITH THE 401K MONEY​ I START​ED THE THIRD​ AND FINAL​ TIME I WENT BACK TO WORK FOR THEM.​ NOW I CAN SIT OR LAY ON IT EVERY​ NIGHT​,​ EVERY​ WEEKE​ND AND MOST OF ALL EVERY​ FRIGG​IN HOLID​AY SO CHRIS​ FIT THROW​ER FROM HELL KISS MY GRITS​.​


AS YOU CAN SEE I HAVE LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT. IT'S CALLED THE WIDOW DIET DON'T TRY IT BECAUSE IT SUCKS. ONE OF US IS GONE AND THERE IS ONE OF US LEFT TO CARRY ON EVEN IF I AM THE SHRINKING WOMAN. LOL THEY SAY THE LORD NEVER GIVES YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN HANDLE BUT THIS IS THE THIRD HUGE MOUNTAIN HE HAS GIVEN ME THIS TIME. BUT I HAVE A CLOUD TO SIT AND LAY ON TO HEAL FROM MY LOSS AS WELL AS THAT CRAZY CRAZY ABUSIVE JOB I HAD. I'M VERY HAPPY AND COMFORTABLE IN MY LOVELY HOME FURNISHED FROM RONNIE MY HUSBAND, TOMMY MY HONEY AND MY HARD WORKING SELF. MANY BLESSINGS AND MEMORIES ARE IN MY HOME.



THIS IS A SLIDESHOW WITH CAPTIONS OF MY LIVING ROOM FROM DIFFERENT ANGLES.